Into His Light
- heartsinger1
- Jun 24, 2020
- 2 min read
"Lay your entire soul open in full exposure before the Sun of Righteousness." Guyon
When's the last time you took stock of where you are in your spiritual life? I mean gut-wrenching honest stock?
I'm so easily tangled in my own self-righteousness. I'm so easily deceived by my own religious activity. I am not my soul's best judge. I live in the shadows, in weaker light. It's impossible to see clearly.
But God is light. He sees not only what I do, but every intention behind every thought, word or deed. He is a Righteous Judge.
So why do I hesitate to lay my soul bare before Him?
What keeps me from running headlong into His telling Light?
Fear of exposure.
Do I really want to deal with the underlying justifications of my slight indiscretions?
Do I really want to live that differently from the world's standard that people point and laugh at my nakedness?
No, not really.
And in the next breath. Yes, help me Jesus!
My Spirit is willing, longing, desiring full communion with its Creator.
My flesh wants to keep its 'precious' hidden in pockets.
My soul casts the deciding vote. And it's a three part being:
My mind - where my thoughts create the chemical cocktail I wash through my system
My will - either weakened or strengthen by my thoughts
My emotions - either balanced or unbalanced by my thoughts
It's obvious, in order to get the soul in line with the Spirit, I must capture every thought. I must decide to let it have a voice or shut it down.*
For me, when fear of exposure would keep me hidden in the garden of my sin, the thought I grab hold of is:
God is good all the time; all the time God is good
This is my mantra. This is the kryptonite to the wrong fear of God. I say it out loud. I sing it. I shout it. And I keep saying it until I find myself, once again, in His loving, healing light, naked and not afraid.
*For some this is easier said than done. We can get trapped in an emotional feedback loop. Sometimes we need professional help to deal with past trauma. Traumatic thoughts can be as damaging to catch as falling shards of broken glass. If that is you, find help. I know even that is difficult. Find someone you trust to act as your advocate. Get them to help you make that first appointment.
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