Selfhood

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"It was the entrance of self that established a difference between the soul and God." Guyon

Self-actualization, self-betterment, self-care, self-discipline, self-esteem, self-feedback, self-growth, self-healing, self...self...self...

I'm on a journey of self-discovery. I am determined to get my eight-year-old self back. I want her positivity. I want her passion for life. I want her self-confidence. I want her self-love. I want to feel like myself again.

None of this is wrong. Self-care and self-love are necessary for growth and maturity. But, like everything we mortals do, it's in the source that will make it dross or gold.

Can we even begin to imagine the purity of Adam and Eve's relationship with God, and each other? There was no self-actualization outside the confines of pure love, full acceptance, and transparent communication. There was, however, a complete lack of self-consciousness: fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of abandonment.

Why? Because self outside of God is opposed to God. But to be clear, God is not opposed to our individual self. He created each and every person unique. He loves our individuality. However, outside His pure love, His full acceptance and His transparent communication, we mess it up.

If I really want my amazing eight-year-old self back I have to give up all the dross I've accumulated in my earth journey. I have to let go of all offence, unforgivingness, self-centred opinions, and hurts, to name a few.

Giving up carrying and examining past trauma, hurts, and words spoken over me (from myself or others) is giving up self-description and self-definition. Like a crab losing its shell, I am, for the transition, naked and vulnerable.

But, as I allow God to describe and define me, I gain protection, security and position as His much-loved child. In Him I find all the self worth needed to live a full, rich, free life. He planned, designed, created and purposed me to be gold.

I know past trauma and wounds will still sting. But in the same way a child runs to mommy or daddy with their owies, so I will run to my Papa.